Graduation on Monday... Woo-Hoo... I Guess... *Vent*posted Jun 25th 2011, 12:29PM
Mood: Ashamed
Music: Simple Plan
Sheezy-people,
I'm almost done with highschool, graduation on Monday, June 27th. I've been looking forward to graduation for months, I can't wait to get to college and live new chapters and experiences in my life.
This weekend I only wanted one thing and that was to spend time with my older brother... Just one day where he's home where Dave, Brian and myself could just hangout and do brother stuff. Every time he comes I have these high expectations that we'd go somewhere and just spend time together as brothers... He keeps do stupid things and the expectations end up never happening... He always end up drinking a lot and spending time wither sleeping or out drinking with all of his friends...
My older brother is my hero; I've looked up to him for as long as I've been alive and I just wish the three of us could hangout... Is it wrong or selfish to think or feel this way? This is a reason why I don't want to dream anymore, why I don't want to expect anything from anyone but myself...
I wish that at least once we could spend brotherly time together that you aren't drunk through...
This all makes me ashamed of myself... I know what to expect and I'm smart enough to not let this happen to myself. So, why do I keep letting it?